. . .

As I look out on the horizon
I feel your forever absence
a coming of senses
and faithfulness
with a despondent me
left to cope arduously

I abscond to the place
we've frequently sojourned
behind and feel an aura
of silence surrounds
and long for the fingertip
linger of you...

Foolish Attempt

I'll walk away with fake
full of comfort and grace
to lie to you
and state my dying case

And know the facade
will soon fade
For sadness will soon
replace this pretentious face

You'll be gone and it won't matter
because the mask you believe
to be true
will only be for you

One last touch
and one last kiss
And I hope to feel you again
after all of this

And in my gaudy unsuccessful manner
I will smile and turn my back
Because I lack the heart
to tell you of my feelings cast

And with all these words
I just want you to know
You will be missed and
I promise... I love you so...

Sweetness

It's not meant to be (like this)
I pretend that you don't exist
It's hard to hide you from
my cheeky grin and
skipped heart beats
I lose my way as
I'm blinded by your
sunshine rain and impecable sweetness

Would I be wrong to say goodbye?
Stolen dreams and pilfered words
I know I need to leave and omit
bigger heartbreak, but I'm content
I need not to hide, but it's impossible
I've tried, try, try again
I've drowned myself in your alcoholic
tongue and hoped for nothing more
And no, The sweetness will not be
concerned with me

12.9.05